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"In A Life Of Hell...
The Hell Of A Lad" PART II
by: Robert J. Shelley ©2004

As you grow, you follow - no mind of your own - you're wallowing in daily routines set by others for you - UNTIL - your mountain of lava made of pain, fear, betrayal, tears, erupt off the scale - you explode - following no path, driven only by wrath - you don't follow, you don't lead, whether empty or lost you're tearing it up no matter the cost. Trying to take your life over - you're as far down as "down" can be. You can't see.

You view the world witnessing you fall and fall, as the whole world laughs, eyeing you with mockery and disgust. They think they "KNOW" you, but now they fear you, spinning out of control, getting back up - learning to be strong - it's in their minds - they know their parts and hope they're wrong. They know you're no longer the crying kid who used to hide, he died, you're no longer their clown of unending strife in this House of Horrors Carnival of Life.

Have you ever truly been "F____" by the evil of being tortured alive, busted up inside, dumped to revive in pitfalls of S___. As it happens no one lends a hand, some give you a sad look, some smile with lies, but all of them split, they walk away...

Hit after hit, blow after blow, kick after kick, bruises, black eyes, blood, visible belt welts, busted bones growing up small.

Got to be alone, hold my own, not much of a life ahead of an abused child, a raped ten year old butt, someday to strike back, hack by hack.

- Please read "Hell Of A Lad" Part III

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