"War" For numerous years I was engaged in a ruthless war against a hateful, vindictive enemy. At times it would appear I would have the upper hand and at other times it appeared not so. My enemy was my arch rival, yet I did not know his identity. I could never comprehend his motives for attempting to destroy me, but he was adamant on fulfilling his intentions. Once I came to the realization I was indulged in battle, it became my obsession to identify my nemesis. During this process I was forced through many different adaptations. Every time the enemy attacked I would attempt to counter attack, although this is extremely difficult to do when you are not even aware of who your opponent is. In mastering a defeat you must have the ability to identify your adversary. Reflecting upon the tactics of my enemy, brought to me the devastating identification of who he was. I recognized at the beginning he was extremely wise and somehow knew all my strengths and weaknesses. He was a perfectionist at delivering damaging blows through his sadistic warfare at exact times I allowed myself to drop my guard. He knew all of my thoughts, schemes and ideas. Yet, I could not comprehend how this was so. Really it is rather terrifying to have such an intelligent and clever adversary. The entire period I pondered, scrutinized, and investigated whom he could possibly be, I could never solve the puzzle. Then the day I decided to give up looking for the final essential piece I needed, it was revealed to me. I actually saw my enemy in all his deviousness and splendor. We were face to face and I even looked him square in the eyes. After so many years of battle I simply could not believe it. As I stared in the mirror I would have never guessed... I was my own WORST ENEMY! |
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